Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Getting my Mojo Back

I didn't exercise yesterday (my birthday) and I have felt really guilty about it. I messed my left foot up somehow; the top of it is sore and it kind of hurts to walk on it. I skipped P90x2 today and just did the elliptical. Not the greatest workout, but at least I worked out! I ate pretty poorly yesterday (hey! it was my bday) but I have done really well today. I will not let myself slip! Don't slip! don't slip! I am looking for fresh, new tools to keep my mojo juices flowing. I joined myfitnesspal- love it! It is so easy to keep track of calories! I also went on pinterest for some ideas and I found a cute little idea for keeping track of weight loss. This is in my kitchen, so I can see it everyday:
Tomorrow is the big day! I promised you I would weigh on Feb. 1st, so stay tuned!! I have not been very good lately, so I'm a little scared. I was talking to one of my friends the other day about bad habits. She has always been pretty thin and exercises regularly. We were talking about the tv and its role in bad eating habits. What is it about eating in front of the tv that makes it so bad?? I have a flat downtown with no dining room. I do have a table with two stools, so I am going to make myself start eating there. The only problem is... it is in my living room right near my tv! I can't escape the tv! AGH! ha. Another thing that is hard for me is that I live by myself, so you can imagine how much fun it is to sit at a table and eat with no noise...NOT!! She suggested I read magazines, read a book, or listen to music at the table while I eat. I think the whole point of eating at a table away from a tv is to eliminate distractions so that you are not just mindlessly eating. Even though the magazines are still a distraction, at least it is better than the tv. I tried it today and it wasn't that bad. I had to have some music in the background though. Here's what I ate for lunch: baked chicken (olive oil, Greek seasoning) with broccoli pesto (steamed broccoli, processed, olive oil, salt and pepper), and mashed white potatoes (fake butter, skim milk, minced garlic). It was pretty tasty!!

Monday, January 30, 2012

Lucky Number 28 is Today

Well, today is the day. I'm 28! You may remember a few blogs back I said I have always felt like 28 will be my best year yet. I have been bad food wise for about 4 days now. I am kicking my own ass into high gear today. I haven't worked out yet, but I will! I hung curtauns in my living room for an hour-that was a good arm workout, sheesh! Well, they're not really hung correctly. They're just kinda rigged until I find someone to do it correctly! I'm horrible at hanging things. Half of my paintings are hung with thumb tacks! Lol. Aren't moms the greatest? My mom got me some new weights because my other ones have become too light. I'm now doing p90x2 with 8 pound weights. She also got me a new yoga mat (you saw how busted up my green one is!) and a new stability ball. I thought I was being saavy by buying a stability ball from Ross. Yeah, it was all jacked up and didn't work. So, here we go! This week is gonna blow the speakers out.
Happy birthday to me:

Me and my sweet mama:

Sunday, January 29, 2012

Birthday Dinner

Fondue! I had fondue for dinner with my family this weekend for my birthday. How healthy would we be if we ate fondue at every meal? You are forced to eat slowly as your bite sized food cooks. And it's so good! My mom makes awesome Greek salad of course and we had shrimp, steak, and pork tenderloin. Oh, here's some great news! Today marks the end of phase 1! I completed thirty days of p90x2! I fell off the wagon some the past few days, so tomorrow I've got to jump back on it and go hard. My mom did P90x2 with me this morning and she pulled a muscle :( Tomorrow is my 28th birthday and its gonna be my best year ever!

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Frying foods in olive, sunflower oils may not be bad for your heart

I just had to share this! One of my friends saw this report when it came out today and she told me it reminded her of my blog. See! Olive Oil is the jam, y'all! :)

Frying foods in olive, sunflower oils may not be bad for your heart

I'm Not Alone!

I am so glad I found this blog tonight: http://www.myallnaturalweightloss.com/ We have the same name (spelled differently) and I can relate to every single thing she posts! We both love cooking, we are both doing beachbody workouts and we face the same struggles. If you like my blog I strongly suggest you check hers out! But don't cheat on me too much! :) She struggles a lot with binge eating, as do I. I have been struggling the past two days with what I eat. I have really had to look at my goals and tell myself that every minute matters. Every decision affects this journey. The more slip ups I have, the further away I am from my goal weight. The reward feels so much better than the guilt.

Trucking Along

You may remember when I first started P90x2, I said I didn't like the core dvd because of all the floorwork. This morning I did it and it wasn't that bad this time! As much as I'm seeing results, I am being reminded daily that I am still really overweight and that I don't need to lose sight of my goals. I finish Phase 1, the first 30 days, this Sunday! This is longest I've ever stuck with any weight loss program. I have such an addictive personailty that I can feel myself getting addicted to these workouts. I love being able to do more each time I do the workouts.

Going Nuts

Lately I've been craving chocolate, which is rare for me. I usually crave the saltier stuff. As I was grocery shopping last night I found dark chocolate roasted almonds! Yum! I pulled out my smart phone to do a little research. I discovered they will actually help with weight loss- can't complain about that! The dark chocolate almond combo is a high source of fiber. So instead of just boring old non salted almonds I can get a little sweet satisfaction. I get really hungry throughout the day and I have discovered that nuts are the best cure for me. I used to make my own trail mixes with all kinds of nuts and dried fruit, but that's not really as healthy as you might think. In my lunch box today is: greek yogurt, low fat string cheese, grilled chicken salad with light balsamic, and of course...nuts!

Tuesday, January 24, 2012


I stumbled last night. I was really craving Taco Bell. I caved and got some. I still got up this morning and did P90x though! I did the balance and power dvd. As I was beating myself up about getting Taco Bell last night, Tony Horton said: "If you stumble, don't beat yourself up. Enjoy your journey." What an awesome time for him to have said that! I don't need to beat myself up for making mistakes. This is a journey for me, and all journeys have obstacles. If they didn't, I would be calling this my "weight loss vacation," which it clearly is not. During my workout today I was just amazed that I could do some of the exercises. I am having to modify a lot still, but I am definitely noticing my muscles getting stronger and my bones are hurting less! I really shocked myself with how much I could actually do today. I am able to stay in plank position longer and do more push-ups. Now if I can just do the pull-ups I'll really be getting it! So, I'm sure you're probably wondering why I haven't posted my weight. I try to stay away from scales. They tend to just depress me, so I stay away from them. I use other factors to measure my progress. The best indicator for me is how my clothes fit. My boss compared tv ratings to the scale. She told me that looking at our ratings everyday can have a negative effect and I can get obsessed and confused because the numbers fluctuate everyday, sometimes for unexplainable reasons. This is so true! Your weight can fluctuate and is not a true reflection of progress. A co-worker asked me today how much weight I've lost because she could tell that I've lost some. I told her I had no idea. With all this said, I will weigh on Feb. 1st. How's that?

Monday, January 23, 2012

Monday Morning Yoga

Ziggy did Yoga with me this morning! Ok, really he was just being nosy...

The P90x2 yoga is really hard and it made me feel like this the whole time:

I can feel my muscles getting stronger and yoga was a little more bearable this time than the last. And, great news...my back hasn't been bothering me lately. I am finally getting over my cold too. You know what today is? One week from my 28th birthday. Remember how I said 28 will be my best year yet? Well, I know it will be. I am feeling more confident everyday. It hasn't even been a month yet and I am already seeing results. Just wait until 12 months have gone by!

Sunday, January 22, 2012

Guilt Free Creamy Chicken and Corn Soup

I cooked a really good soup in my Crock Pot Saturday. First, I made my own cream of chicken soup on the stove out of butter substitute, skim milk, flour and low sodium chicken stock. I just whisked all ingredients on low until the mixture was right. Then I threw it into the crockpot with whole chicken breasts, frozen corn kernels, frozen carrots, more low sodium chicken stock, skim milk, cream cheese substitute, diced onion and salt and pepper. I let it cook on high for about three hours then removed the chicken breasts, diced them, and put them back in the pot. Finally, I let it cook on low until chicken was all the way cooked.

The Dress Fits Again!

I bought this dress last year for my going away to Nashville party. It fit me that night. I washed it, it shrank, and I put on some pounds, so it hasn't fit since. This morning as I was plundering through ny clothes it caught my eye. I decided to give it a shot and ta-dah! It fits!
I think this occasion calls for a duck face...

Saturday, January 21, 2012

Zumba With Friends!

So, I know I've been whining all week about being sick, but I still feel like poo. I took yesterday off from working out. My friend Amy (remember her from 'workout buddies?') picked me up this morning and we met some of our friends for Zumba class. I had to take it slow bc I'm sick, but it was a really good workout! Today's class was easier for me compared to the last time I did it and I think P90x2 helped with that! Friends make working out so much more fun :)

Friday, January 20, 2012

Week Three

Week One:
Week Three:
So, I know there's not a huge difference in these pictures, but I can see small changes, which is good for me. Babysteps!

Learning New Habits with Tater Salad

Ok, so if you haven't figured out by now, I kind of like to cook. I'm single and I live by myself, so it can very hard to control what I eat at home. I like to cook more than one meal at a time so I can have leftovers, but then I just end up overeating. I'll go back for seconds and whoops! there go the leftovers... Along this journey I am constantly observing every move I make and having to learn new habits. A new-me habit I learned today is to immediately portion my leftovers into Tupperware. Throwing some aluminum foil over the dish and throwing it in the fridge makes it too easy to reach in and grab extra bites. Today, I made some red potato tater salad and portioned it as soon as it was concocted. Recipe: cut red potatoes into cubes, boil until cooked, drain. Pour drained potatoes back into hot pot, mix with pickle juice, chopped pickles, light mayo and mustard. Dash salt and pepper to taste. Very simple and decently healthy in moderation.

Faux Fried Chicken Salad

I love fried chicken salads. They are one of my favorite meals, especially if the chicken is tossed in a delicious wing sauce. They're even better when dressed with ranch or bleu cheese. Unfortunately, fried chicken salad will have to be another meal I learn to live without. Today I was craving one really badly so I decided to make a faux fried chicken salad! I feathered a full cooked chicken breast with a fork, LIGHTLY floured it and sauteed the chicken in a pan with olive oil. I cooked the chicken until it was crispy and tossed it in some hot sauce. Make up a good bed of your favorite salad mix and Voila'! Faux fried chicken salad! It was really really good.

Thursday, January 19, 2012

I Got This!

I woke up feeling really sick this morning, I think I'm coming down with something funky for sure. When I woke up I just wanted to roll back over and sleep all day. I clicked on Rachael Ray (as I do every morning) and Jennifer Hudson was her guest! I love her! Jennifer was talking about her new book "I Got This" and her own weight loss journey. This inspired to get out of bed and work out. I ended up doing an hour and a half of P90x2! I did X2 Total Body and X2 Ab Ripper. I was having to go very slow and at my own pace, but it sure felt good! I actually felt a little better afterwards. I told myself that I was going to have to make a decision: either be sick, lay in bed all day and call in to work, or get up and carry on with my day. No In-betweens. Annddd.... I even ate breakfast! I ate Greek yogurt, granola, banana and fresh squeezed lemon and grapefruit juice (see below). My back has not been hurting today (knock on wood); I spent a lot of time working my lower back on the foam roller this morning and I think it really helped. JHud has lost over 80 pounds and I just think she is such an inspiration. This whole thing is so big that it might take huge inspirations to keep me going every single day. The more I blog, more and more people are telling me that I am inspiring them. It is hard to believe that I am actually doing this! And being told that I'm inspiring others is just crazy to me right now. Usuallly by this point in my workout I have already given up and reverted back to my old ways. Last night I was really proud of myself because I refrained from eating junk food while I was out with some friends. They ordered some yummy looking cheese fries and chips and salsa. I wanted to eat some so bad, but I didn't. I have to walk this journey with blinders on. Eye on the prize. If I splurge, it takes me a long time to get back on track. I imagine an alcholic can relate. What is the point in having just one shot of whiskey/cheese fry? It is more of a tease than anything. It is better to just stay far away from the junk until I can truly learn to control my cravings. I am also learning to look at my fattest moments in a postive way instead of letting them drag me down. I had another fattest moment today at work; we had professional pictures made. I spent forever doing my make-up and fixing hair only to see the proofs and realize that I'm still obese no matter how pretty my hair and make-up looks. I just don't feel pretty at this size. I hate the way I look! Instead of dwelling over how fat I looked, I realized that the picture should inspire me, not get my down. Everytime I see my picture attached to my stories/tweets, it should remind me of what I'm working so hard for. And when I lose weight I can have a new picture taken! Look at JHud! Doesn't she look amazing?

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Learning to Like Breakfast

Something out of the norm happened to me this morning: I woke up hungry and I actually wanted breakfast! I have always hated eating in the mornings and usually don't eat until closer to noon-ish no matter how early I wake up. I usually eat so late at night that I'm just not hungry in the mornings. I'm trying to start eating earlier, and therefore, stop eating earlier as well. So far, I'm seeing some progress. I found out today that the reason I've been so sluggish in the mornings this week is that I'm getting sick :( I do not want to get sick at all, but that made me happy because I am so terrified of losing my mojo, that I was scared that this whole thing is begining to slip away from me. As I've shown you before, I fall off the wagon so easily! I cannot stop my new regime, not for one single second because I will fall. I've eaten pretty well today. I had some chips with my subway- which wasn't ideal, but they are my favorite! Ms. Vickie's kettle cooked jalapeno chips are the jam. I was hoping they would clear my sinuses a little bit. It worked for about... seven minutes. I'm doing really well drinking water. I've been drinking out of my Nalgeine bottle, which is 32 ounces. I've been averaging 3 refils of that a day. Tony Horton would be happy to know that I've only been drinking one cup of coffee a day. This is a huge feat for me. As far as the workouts go, my back has been hurting A LOT. Today is a P90x2 "rest day" so I think I'll do just that and then get back at it tomorrow. I've been getting so much support, which is keeping me going. I just can't wait until people can actually start seeing a difference!
Omlette with cheddar and spinach topped with organic salsa. Side of ruby red grapefruit.

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Set, Plank, Sphinx, Plyo, Jump!

Yesterday you may remember that I could not finish plyocide. I just wasn't feeling it. I ended up working out on my dinner break and I drank a lot of water. When I woke up this morning I felt a little better but my back was hurting some. I took some time to drink my coffee, do a little reading, drink lots of water and get good and woken up. I psyched myself up and I did Plyocide. All of it! My back was hurting a lot during the exercise, but overall it was a really great workout. The last move is set, plank, sphinx, plyo, jump! I actually completed the whole exercise and I kept up with the DVD! This is a big win for me. Yesterday's downfall really encouraged me to kill it today. And I did! My back is really sore today, but it is totally worth it. I was so proud of myself after my workout, I actually let out a few "hell yeahs!" I have eaten very well today with the exception of the GiGis cupcake I ate for a co-worker's birthday a little while ago. I gave into peer pressure. I am slowly but surely noticing a difference in my appetite. I'm not as hungry throughout the day as I normally am. Maybe there really is something to this eating breakfast thing! I have been making myself eat in the mornings like everyone says you're supposed to. I have been extremely tired lately, so I'm trying to figure out ways to give myself long-term energy that do not include a pound of coffee.

Monday, January 16, 2012

A Case of the Mondays

My body is apparently having a case of the Mondays. I woke up this morning per my usual routine: drink coffee, watch news, exercise, watch more news, get ready for work. Unfortunately I just was not feeling it this morning when I was doing Plyocide, my favorite P90x2 workout. My balance was off, my muscles were not working properly and I just couldn't do it. I shut it off and just lifted some weights and did some housework. This weekend I observed what I did and how my friends ate (again, I was the only overweight one). One girl, who is very small, ordered a bbq sandwich Saturday with coleslaw and only ate the meat without the bread. She did eat the coleslaw though. Everyone else at the table ordered fried food and ate every last bite! At brunch on Sunday morning with the same group of friends, we all ate a lot, none of which was healthy. I just cannot eat like that. ever. If I want to lose weight and keep it off that is. Some people may be able to eat badly, not exercise, and stay thin, but not this girl! I also didn't drink enough water this weekend, nor did I exercise once. I firmly believe that my weekend actions are the reason I could not complete the P90x workout this morning. I will have to refrain from eating unhealthy all the time and I have to exercise everyday. Maybe once I've gotten down to my ideal weight I can splurge, but not now. My body is too vulnerable. It is too easy for me to slip right back into old habits. I brought workout clothes to work today so I can jog on my dinner break. We have a mini gym, which is awesome. I've already had about 64 ounces of water today and I'm feeling much better. I had a healthy breakfast of Kashi cereal and a banana. For lunch I had a huge salad of romaine hearts, spinach, cheese and balsamic. I packed some healthy snacks and leftovers for dinner. As long as I actually exercise on my break later and keep chugging water, I think I'll be able to put this weekend's actions behind and move on to another successful week!

Saturday, January 14, 2012

The Weekend Challenge

Ok, I'm not saying I dread the weekend by any means! However, they are very difficult for me. I want to go out to eat with my friends, drink and get lots of couch time. I know that I just can't, if I ever want to reach my goals. I have some friends coming in town tonight, so instead of eating out with them I fixed this scrumptious hearty meal so I'm not tempted to eat crap throughout the night.
I cooked fresh okra and tomatoes in my slow cooker. Wheat pasta with organic meat pasta sauce (from Earthfare). I also made some yummy sausage balls out of ground turkey, cheddar, sausage, italian bread crumbs, egg and hot sauce. Delish.

The Best Snack Ever

I stole this idea from a friend and it's my favorite. I buy a big bag of frozen fruit with no additives or any other crap they like to add to packaged foods. When I'm packing my lunch, I grab some, put it in a container and taken the frozen fruit to work with me. It thaws during the day. Awesome.

Friday, January 13, 2012

My Fattest Moments

I remember the day I became obese. I say I became obese that day because obese is a way of life, a way of thinking. It is an addiction based on the inability to overcome your cravings. The day my mindset about food, and well, life in general changed was one day in 2004 when I got home from work. I was in college working at a restaurant called Locos Grill and Pub in Birmingham, AL. I had the worst job ever invented: a server. When I got off work I ordered a plate of potato skins to go. It was a really awful day at work and I decided to solve my problems that day with a plate of cheesy, bacony, buttery, fried, sour creamy goodness. Once I got home with the food, I was allowed to stuff my face and eat the whole plate without anyone around. This started something new. I began to bring food home that was horrible for me because I knew I wasn't supposed to. It was like, somehow, eating that to go box full of shit would somehow make me feel better about having a crappy day. This became a habit and eventually, an addiction. I got to the point where I literally could not even remember the last time I exercised, much less ate something healthy. I was partying with my friends, doing poorly in shcool and pretty much just sucking at life. It was fun at the time, but now it's like I'm nursing an 8 year hangover. Remember how I said in an earlier blog that something would inspire me to lose weight? I would get so pumped up and swear that I was going to lose it and keep it off? Here are a few examples of those inspirations, a.k.a. my "fattest moments:" •In the fall of 2007 I went to a PRSSA convention in Philadelphia with my PR class in college. I was so excited about the trip...my first professional trip! I got to meet Mia Farrow, Tim Russert, and thousands of public relations professionals and students from across the country. I was miserable the entire trip because my feet hurt so bad and my legs were constantly chaffed due to the amount of walking we had to do. One day we went to the Rocky statue. The whole group ran up the stairs and did the appropriate Rocky celebratory dance and were ready to come back down by the time I made it up there. The icing on the cake this trip? On the flight on the way back home I had to get a seatbelt extender. Mortified. I'm on the far right in the top picture. Second from left in the bottom picture. Fattest Moment.
•Summer of 2009: I went to Six Flags with some of my sorority sisters. Before the trip I was dreading being all sweaty and miserable because it was the middle of the summer. I was not expecting to NOT BE ABLE TO FIT INTO THE RIDES!!! Yep. I could not ride half of the rides because I was too fat. I love roller coasters and had to sit back and be the purse holder. I'm on the right. Fattest Moment.
•I have three best friends that I have known pretty much my entire life: Anna, Lee and Amy. We all grew up together and I love them to death. We've been friends for over 20 years. When Anna got married I was so mad at myself for being overweight in her wedding. We had been dreaming about being each other's bridesmaids our whole lives! How could I have done this to myself? I'm to the right of the bride.
After Anna's wedding I vowed to lose weight for the next one. A couple years later Lee got married. I was even bigger. All the way in the front to the right.
Not too long after that, Amy got married. The biggest I've ever been. I even had to order a "special" dress. BTW, Anna is on left. At this point in our lives, she had already given birth to twins. Lee is on the right.
Fattest moments. These are just some of my fattest moments. I feel like if these had happened to most people, it would have really kicked them in the butt to get a move on for good. But not me! I just let it get me down. Not anymore. I am crazy successful in my career and I think it's about time I let my body show that I am happy and successful!


Does it look like P90x threw up on my floor? I did the balance and power dvd. Made my back hurt. A lot. The exercises didn't seem too terribly bad at the time; but then again, I'm modifying just about every move. Today, it's back to the core dvd which has a ton of floor work. I still dread floor work because I'm so out of shape but I have to tell myself that one day it will be easy for me!

Thursday, January 12, 2012

Quick Greek Chicken Tenders

Don't you just love Greek chicken? But let's be honest, who has all day to cook it the right way? :) This is my adaptation. It doesn't taste quite the same, but it's pretty darn close. Preheat oven to 375, line baking dish with olive oil, put chicken in the pan (I cooked 9 thawed chicken tenders so I could make 3 meals out of it) and cover it with fresh lemon juice, garlic, and Greek seasoning. Coat the chicken really well. I used 1 and a half lemons (lemons are the secret to keeping it juicy) and I use World Market's Greek Seasoning. I love onions, so I threw a few pieces of red onion in there for good measure. Once oven is heated up, I baked for 20 minutes, or until chicken is 165 degrees. Oh, what's that delicous looking blob of green goo next to the chicken? I cooked red lentils in my slowcooker and they are scrumptious! Opa!

Babysteps, baby differences

This picture of me in the orange tank top is me today

This grey tank top picture was taken two weeks ago

So, I know there's not a huge difference and you might not even be able to tell, but I have lost a little. These tank tops are the same size (xxl). When I put the orange one on this morning, I could tell it was a little looser in the stomach. Which, by the way, is where I can see a change in these pictures. Oh! I keep forgetting to tell you about a win I had over the weekend. I went to Old Navy to buy a dress for Saturday night. I usually have to buy an xxl from them. So, I picked up a cute ruffly dress that had xxl on the hanger. When I got home I realized it's an xl! And it fits great! :) baby differences that keep me going...

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

I Popped

Ever heard the expression "I'm about to pop?"

Yep. This happened.
I bent over to pick something up and the button on my jeans actually popped off. So, it looks like I'm going to need some new jeans soon! These jeans are a size 24. When I can fit into a size 22 I'll buy some more! Talk about a swift kick in the butt to get a move on with the weight loss! Wow.

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

It's the Little Things

I've been getting down lately because this is just. so. hard. I did, however, have a happy moment at work today. In the bathroom mirror I noticed a difference in my stomach. It looked a little slimmer and it made me smile :) I don't think anybody else would notice, but it was rewarding to see a tiny result. I just don't understand why I don't WANT to eat healthy and exercise regulary! I want to look good, feel good, and be healthy. I know I'm the only person that can make it happen, so where's my motivation? Why is it so hard for me to get motivated? Why do I run from things that I know are good for me? I expressed frustration to my boss today because it was 3pm, I ate lunch at 1 (a pretty hearty one at that might I add) and I was starving! I've been downing water and eating balanced meals, why am I STARVING all the time? I mean, two hours after I ate lunch it felt like I hadn't eaten in two weeks. She said it is because my metabolism is increasing because I'm working out more. Lord, I hope so! And when I get hungry, it's full-blown headache... nausea, grumpiness, the whole works. I see people at work that eat dinner, maybe one snack, and that's it. I have to constantly snack throughout my shift just to save myself from a nauseating headache. I bring almonds, string cheese, fruit and yogurt to munch on in between meals. What kinds of snacks do you bring to work to keep you from binging?

Monday, January 9, 2012

I'm Insane!

"Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results." -Albert Einstein. A conversation at work led me to believe that everyone, including me, is insane! A co-worker told us she pinched herself with pliers so many times while taking down Christmas lights that she has bruises covering her hands. We asked her why she didn't take them down using a different method and she said it was because she wanted to just keep going and get it done. This spurred a conversation about all the things we do repeatedly, despite the pain it causes. One co-worker says he is guilty of constantly leaving kitchen cabinet doors open and banging his head on them. He says it always strikes him right in the temple and no matter how bad it hurts, he doesn't learn from it! Someone then said: "my husband does the same thing! He bangs his head into the cabinets all the time and never learns!" I bet Einstein would have had a grand 'ol time calling all of us insane. He would definitely think my weight loss efforts are insane: something inspires me to lose weight, I vow to do it this time and keep it off for good. I start a new journal, I spent money on the latest weight loss magic trick and stick with it for 5 seconds. Something inspires me to lose weight, I vow to do it this time and keep it off for good. I start a new journal, I spent money on the latest weight loss magic trick and stick with it for 5 seconds. Something inspires me to lose weight, I vow to do it... Ok, I think you get the point. The co-worker that kept pinching her hands deliberately continued with what she was doing because she was just ready to take the Christmas lights down. Getting off the ladder and figuring out a different way to do the chore might cause more work in the present and the result would be further away. And, there's always the chance that a new method would be more difficult and challenging along the way, despite an ending without bruised hands. The cabinet whacker forgets to close the doors and his carelessness causes him harm later. These examples might not be exactly along the lines of Einstein's definition, but the point is that we repeat things no matter how many times we get hurt by the same action. I will continue with a bad health decision, despite the consequences I could face. For example: sometimes I know I should go to the grocery store and buy healthy food, but instead, I'll stay on the couch and order pizza. And like the cabinet whacker, I forget to make myself aware of my repeat offenses. I get so used to being unhealthy that making smart, good-for-me decisions don't affect me until I get whacked upside the temple by the metaphorical cabinet door. I.E: going days and days eating crap and drinking sodas and then suffering from a migraine due to the sodium and lack of water. So, how can I reclaim my sanity? Stop repeating bad habits that I know have consequences and make conscious, deliberate decisions to be healthy all the time.

Sunday, January 8, 2012

The Token

I think the best time to workout is when you just really don't wanna. My best friend is in town this weekend and I have worked out both days! I have had too much to drink and I have pretty much eaten like crap all weekend. I am going to have to learn self control when I go out with friends. Every single one of my girl friends is thin and in really good shape. I have really hot friends! I always feel like the "token" if you know what I mean... It is so frustrating to see them eat crap all the time and still stay thin! I actually have more endurance and energy than most of my thin, hot friends. Not fair, is it? But if wishing I had their body types worked, I wouldn't be writing this blog would I? It is such a deliberate process, learning to adapt to a healthy lifestyle. I am taking this very seriously and I will find what works for me. It is so hard for me to eat super healthy when I go to restaurants. I'm an amateur "foodie" so if I am spending my hard earned dollar bills on food outside my house I want it to be something incredible that I can learn a new recipe from. Who wants to spend $15 on an average grilled chicken breast? So frustrating! So maybe, what will help me, is to only go out to eat like once a month? As for the times in between, suck it up and order the $15 plate of ordinary. It will pay off in the end. That's what they say anyway. Saturday morning I made Meighan do p90x with me and she was shocked at how hard it is! While I was still warrior 3 kick-in ass, she was bent over gasping for air. Meighan is a runner and is tiny, so you can imagine how good it made me feel! She was very supportive and told me she was proud of how well I was doing! This morning, she woke up sore as hell and I felt great! So I did an hour and a half of yoga! While she took a nap lol. This week, I challenge myself to make eating decisions at every meal. Then on saturday, I'll give myself a token good for one splurge meal.

Thursday, January 5, 2012


Yeah, p90x yoga kicked my mat's ass today. Oh yeah, and mine. See these rips on my mat? My mat is now covered in rips and tears! I've never been really big into yoga because I get soooo bored. It's just so quiet! (hey, I work in news, I'm used to loudness!) I really liked the first p90x2 yoga dvd. It was really hard, but it's the first dvd that I can actually do all the exercises! So that's encouraging. I'll reward myself at the end of my journey with a new mat. I'm obviously going to need it!

White Eggs Can't Jump!

But all that extra protein in egg whites can help you jump! Give me your egg white recipes. I'm on a kick. Jumping is such a good exercise. There's quite a bit of jumping in p90x and at first my knees were resisting it. It's amazing to me how many things I could do effortlessly as a kid. I could tear a jump rope contest up!

Egg White Omlette:
Sautee onion, healthy as it comes ham, mushrooms in olive oil until onions are tender. Whip mixture up with egg whites, a bit of milk and cheese. I threw some s and p in there for good measure. Spray pan with olive oil and cook omlette. I used to loooove omlettes with tons of cheese, sausage and salsa. So instead of loading it up with sugary salsa, I sliced up some tomatoes and fresh green onions and it was delisioso! Instead of a ginormous glass of juice, I ate a grapefruit. Choices.

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

(Insert Hashtag Here)Frustration!

I am a firm believer that honesty is the best(damnit I caved into my fast food craving last night)..policy. I ate dinner really early at work because I was starving and I had already plowed through my snacks. I needed to go to wal-mart after work and...so, instead of just fighting my hunger until I got home, I stopped at Sonic and got a fried chicken biscuit. Boo me. Ok, that one little boo is the only self-inflicted nose thump I will allow. Because! Believe it or not, I still made a better decision with that biscuit than I normally would have. Here's how/why: I have been craving a chicken biscuit for weeks. Yes, it was an impulse eating choice, but that craving has gone bye bye. For now anyways. Next: brace yourself, folks, here comes honesty! I wanted to order a combo with cheese tots and a soda so bad I could literally taste the 57% real processed cheese(not an actual nutrition fact claim, aforementioned statement was made for blog entertainment purposes only). So, what willpower did I achieve here? Even though I ate a buttery, flaky, fried piece of bad decision, I said NO to the binge. When I got home I ate a reasonably sized portion of my homemade broccoli soup. Today is a new day and I will not dwell over said biscuit, I will pat my self on the back, and continue to take babysteps in the right decision. #frustrationover

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

Willpower! The Power to Say No!

Have you ever stared at a thin man or woman, wondering HOW do they have the willpower to say no? No! to that extra slice of pizza, No! to that cupcake? How have they trained themselves that there are consequences for eating crap? I have experienced the consequences but yet I still make really bad choices. Does that mean there's something wrong with me? How have these people managed to stay thin their entire lives? A coworker brought in a package of yummy looking cookies today. He walked around the newsroom offering them to everyone. I sat back and observed reactions to this grand cookie gesture. I did not see one single person turn them down (except for me of course). As I was second guessing my decision to say no, I watched expressions. As the cookies were presented in front of them, some lit up and were excited about the treats. Others had expressions that they know they shouldn't, but... one cookie won't harm anything. The most common reaction I observed was guilt. I could read their faces. If they didn't take a cookie they would feel bad for turning him down. Almost every single day some sort of food is brought into our office. And you know what? The food remains in the breakroom a lot longer than it does when people walk around and pass it out. So, what is the purpose of this entry? By golly, I have identified one of my reasons for mindless eating: guilt. No one wants to hurt a friend's feelings for turning their food down. From now on, I will remind myself of this eureka moment when food is passed around in front of me. Their hurt feelings will go away, but the cottage cheese on my butt won't as long as I can't say... NO! P.S. Just as I was about to hit publish, a coworker walked by with a plate and said: "would you like a piece of homemade nut roll?" Guess what I said?...

Broccoli, Chicken, Cheddar Soup

I sauteed olive oil, garlic, onions and mushrooms in a pan until onions were tender. I then combined cooked chicken (I just cooked 4 chicken tenders on the stove in a frying pan with olive oil), broccoli, cheddar cheese, low sodium chicken broth and onion mixture in crockpot. I then cooked it on high for 3 hours, adding cheddar cheese in the last 30 minutes. It's really good, but I still think there is too much sodium. I didn't add any seasonings to save on sodium. I think next time I'll attempt to make my own vegetable broth. Anybody ever done that before? Suggestions?

Monday, January 2, 2012

I am here for a reason. You're here for a reason.

Workout Buddies!

One of the greatest things about working out is a workout buddy! My friend Amy came over this morning and we did Plyocide together. It wasn't nearly as hard today as it was the first time I did it! And hey, I didn't get nauseous this time! Yay! My back is a little sore, so I think I'm going to need to stretch it out a little more tomorrow. Amy is really supportive of me and is one of the best friends I've ever had. She is always encouraging me when I get down. Whether it's work, life or my weight. I am so lucky to have her in my life and it's friends like her that make me realize that I CAN do this!! A few times during the workout today I would get down and say things like: "it's so frustrating that my muscles are okay with the exercise but my bones aren't (i.e. push-ups. they hurt my hands because of my weight)." Or, I would express frustration about how many modifications I had to do. And she would say encouraging things like: "just think, when you lose weight it will be easier and your body will allow you to do more exercises," or: "P90x exercises are hard for most people. A lot of folks have to modify, not everybody looks like Tony Horton!"

Who Doesn't Love a Chef Salad?

I made the most scrumptious chef salad for lunch today. Romaine lettuce, boiled egg, turkey bacon, red onions and shredded carrot. Yes, that's carrot, not cheddar cheese! I know everything is beddar with cheddar, but when you pile on the ingredients and dressing, who can actually taste the cheese anyway? I figure if it looks like cheese, it must be as good, right? I didn't miss it. I did think I was going to miss the pile of ranch or bleu cheese I wanted to throw on there though. But alas, I chose an alternative and guess what? The tangy balsamic was surprisingly better! It's all about choices people. When you choose to make a healthy eating decision, it is so much more rewarding and let's be honest, it usually does taste better.

What eating choices do you struggle with? For me, I have to deliberately and consciously make an effort to eat healthy: every meal, every snack, every time I eat. It's living life one meal at a time and battling with choices until I can take it day by day.